Had to talk to a teacher leaderabout a student today. Conversation led to a hotline call. There’s a specific term for the emotional toll a teacher, counselor, caretaker, etc. pays in this kind of situation. It escapes me now.
Today’s experience cut into my self confidence. I’ve applied for a bigge job as a leader. I truly felt ready. But after today’s emotional toll, I’m missing my gung-ho, battle ready confidence.
Maybe it’s just coincidence. There are bound to be days of doubt amd days of second-guessing. Maybe today is just the first.
Possibly the self-doubt is a reflection of the argument/miscommunication I had with my mom. If I can’t communicate with my own mom, then do I really know how to communicate as a leader?
I applied for a second, less leader-like job. Found out on our apllication system I can’t upload a job-specific cover letter for each position I apply for. If I can’t target a position I’m interested in, how do I sell myself with confidence? Thus is the world where technology should help us, but in some instances it is also the caise of our biggest failures. (Highest depression rate in teens ever. Lowest incidence of teens hanging out with freinds outisde of school. Technology being called “social” and “smart.” coincidence? Definitely not, but this is a rabit hole for another place.)
If I have fears and doubts, how do I convince others I am the person for the job?