**Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “ick.” Find a word with “ick” in it or use it as a word itself.**
The sun has been lingering – clinging to the horizon until closer to six. It failed to clear the trees until 7:12 this morning. Just as it peeks in around the curtains, my friend’s car pulls into the driveway. Early Saturday morning visit to the Farmer’s Market. I’m dwelling on the fact that I have to see my boyfriend today. It has been 6 days since I’ve seen him. The time is running out on this relationship. Tick-tick-ticking away like the shortening days of summer. The arithmetic probability he will change is closer to zero. People don’t change. I dated him in the past and it was horrible for the same reasons it is now. Doesn’t the phrase say, “Crazy is doing the same thing expecting different results.” Maybe I do possess the lunatic gene that runs in my family. I like to think I’m a functioning lunatic, though. I don’t scream at people, throw random tantrums, or use aggression to get my way. I’ve just run out of patience for the “same shit, different day” kind of stuff. I’m tired of managing teenagers in the classroom, giving the same instructions day in and day out. I’m tired of hearing the same sob-stories, same excuses for why this boyfriend isn’t happy. I’ve been burning the candle at both ends. I think the wick is nearly gone.
**Prompt Here: https://lindaghill.com/2017/07/07/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-july-817/ **